Circle of Life

We have good news and bad news.

The bad news first. My grandma (kinda unexpectedly) passed away last weekend. I can't even put into word how I feel about this, I'm speechless. She will be sorely missed.

RIP Grandma (1923-2011)

The good news. I think the picture says it all:

My mom was able to tell Grandma about our new announcement before she passed (and before others knew). Since she couldn't speak, she just smiled and clapped. This made my day to hear that she knew before she died.

BTW--the EDD is the beginning of May and no, we're not going to find out the sex of this one either.

The third time was the charm!

Miscarriage sucks!

Having two miscarriages in a row is really hard, physically, financially and most importantly, emotionally. I don't know which is worse, dealing with the infertility the first time or not being able to sustain a pregnancy again.
The good/bad news is that (so far) there is no reason that this is happening. Just like our infertility. Not sure why, it just is. However, the light at the end of the tunnel is that the first time it was SO well worth the wait with little J. He is the light of our lives and brings us such joy. We are very lucky to have him.
The one thing I keep coming back to and reminding myself is that God has a plan, and what's meant to be, will be. He sure showed us the first time with little J. We just need to be patient and keep strong.
But, it sure is hard when all I see are pregnant women and hear about due dates that were around the same time as both of mine....